i am content.

i know i've said this,

but still,

i can't get over my contentedness

it fills me - 

till in the middle of all my movement

i am still

i am content

because i know in whom i have trusted

he never fails

never!

"as you undertake this building process yourself,

allow the minutes to stretch into hours.

let the sun rise and set and the seasons change around you

as you lose yourself to molding, creating, forming 

and shaping your beliefs. 

pray for inspiration. 

surround yourself with people who will encourage you.

allow the process to take time, 

and once you are focused,

do not let yourself be dissuaded.

others may pack up, close up, and become distracted.

but still the builders build."

- emily freeman (becoming His)

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"sometimes life walking straight ends up at corners turning

and the previous learning becomes insufficient,

the current text unfamiliar.  

in those moments our hearts grasping for what once was certain,

are forced to reach for possibilities undefined." 

- emily freeman (becoming his)

"and he had faith no longer, 

for he knew, 

nothing doubting"

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“we must have the courage to be imperfect while striving for perfection”

 – patricia t. holland

there was a time when i worried about everything

and when i say everything ... i mean everything

the past, the future the present

what would happen and where would we be in

1 minute, 1 hour, 1 week, 1 year

i was so tired, physically I felt okay, but I was so tired

i hadn’t always felt this way,

so why couldn’t I figure out what was wrong?

i spent long hours and days complaining to Chase

worrying and worrying

whining and whining

i could not find or even begin to explain where the turmoil was coming from

i couldn’t slow down, even when i slept

when i was going it was like i was in overdrive all the time

what was wrong?

Faith

i had lost it.

simple as that.

i worried too much about everything

because i wasn’t doing anything right.

because i wasn’t doing anything right i felt like i had to do more and more

and more, i couldn’t slow down and reflect or take time to ponder because

i’d panic.

i’d panic because i’d see all my imperfections,

 all that was wrong with me

i thought it would work to run and run and run – never really knowing i was running

But this is all a lie.

slowing down taking it all in

and realizing God loves me no matter where i’m at in life

gave me the courage to truly be content

being imperfect on this road to perfection.

i’ve found that if i fall, if i panic, all i need to remember is the

Faith

God grants me by loving me each day – by loving me no matter my imperfections

his love is not conditional

he takes me by the hand and leads

the spirit whispers this to me

he whispers “you are beginning to see”

as I look at my life, who i am and who we are, Chase and i,

i can remember that this life is line upon line and that every time

every time i fall, no matter the length of time, i learn something

i learn that in the getting back up you begin to see and understand

not in the way the world would have you see and understand

but as God would

and it makes SO much sense,

- God's whispers comfort the soul -

He brings rest even when you’re running

Faith is trust – trust that He loves you and all will be well

so keep on trying

“sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says,

 I’ll try again tomorrow”.

 – president monson