God’s timing and His answers to prayers,
are both simultaneously intricate and simple.
this knowledge,
this blessing from
God, of answered prayers, is not new to me;
but every time it
happens i’m in awe.
i tell chase all the
time He ALWAYS answers my prayers,
He has promised
to,
we just need to see
it, hear it, feel it, acknowledge it.
lately I’ve been
praying for humility
but I didn’t start
off there, I didn’t know where to start really;
I just knew
something needed to change,
with this move to California I’ve floundered
with what to do-
I have too much
time.
so I began praying
with the intention to find a job,
that seemed logical
to me, but the words never really formed into that.
I could never seem
to say Lord, help me find a job, instead I worked around it;
help me, help me was
my verbal and often silent plea.
my prayers then
seemed to turn to help me find a purpose,
something to do with
my life (not just in the realm of jobs),
I wanted to be
fulfilled,
to find something
that could give me a passion, like Chase has found.
but as the days have
passed i’ve been gifted with more waiting;
so I prayed for
strength to be patient and calm in the waiting;
I began to pray that
I could just be happy each day.
now I see I was
unwittingly praying for humility;
“having a clear
perspective, and therefore respect, for one’s place in context.”
“to recognize
gratefully our dependence on the Lord-to understand that we have
constant need for
His support”.
God has turned my
original messy prayer into an answer
to pray for
humility, to seek for humility, to become humble.
He led me there
through people and His timing.
as I picture the
process that took place over minutes, days, weeks and even years
it all seems so
effortless and simple (the touch of the
Master’s hand).
but believe me the
process has not been simple and effortless or even pretty;
and it will always
be ongoing,
but I now have a
clear concise word for what I should seek for and learn.
Humility.
how do I become
humble?
well He answered
that prayer too.
“Always Remember
Him.”
i thought I was
doing this well enough,
but God wanted me to
see that I needed to focus MORE
that’s the key
focusing on Him-DAILY!
as we FOCUS on HIM
DAILY
we no longer have a
desire to do evil,
we draw nearer to
Him,
we begin to develop
more attributes like Him.
we begin to rely on
Him and become humble.
so not only do I
think and pray to Him
I’ve begun keeping a
journal of His hand in my daily life.
as I begin recording
it,
I see and feel He was
with me, He is with me and will always be with me.
what a wonderful
blessing.
what a wonderful
powerful lesson God has given me.
I’ve literally felt
my heart begin to change,
to be filled with
charity, forgiveness, and humility.
and in it I’ve found
purpose.
“And inasmuch as
they were humble
they might be made
strong,
and blessed from on
high,
and receive
knowledge from time to time”
D&C 1:26-28
