- hogle zoo -

still not sure how i feel about  zoos

but it was fun!

chase sang me a song 

here are some of the lyrics

"rainbows, lollipops and sunshine

everything that's wonderful is what i feel when we're together,

brighter than a lucky penny,

when you're near the rain cloud disappears, dear, 

and i feel so fine just to know that you are mine."

bahahahahaha!! so funny also pretty cute

but really it was a joke cause this is a 60's pop song.

oh man...

he told me to write it cause i'm concerned that people

may think i'm not happy but really if i write anything on my blog

i'm happy when i've written it. 

i just like to share the ups and downs i experience but the downs

aren't really down they are just a learning experience.

hopefully that makes sense

i like writing about things that means something to me and i think a lot 

but i'm hap hap happy!!! 

“where when my aching grows,

where when I languish,

where in my need to know, where can I run?”

a constant low drum

becoming a louder beat

i never noticed

the words had been drowned out..

gone

i forgot they’d even existed

how could i have?

when once not long ago they’d been so strong.

they fed my soul

what was I feeding on without the words?

a constant low drum

a loud beat

without realizing they’d been lost 

the words were given back to me

it stopped me in my tracks

my unknown aches surfaced and dissipated

they flew away

and tears of gladness, of solace sprung

arms outstretched, light so bright

words spoke to my soul

welcome

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sometimes i believe i will be happiest after the storms

after life is perfect and everything i’ve ever wanted comes true

this is a lie - it's false 

this belief is assumed by my subconscious without my ever having said so

but i’m mortal and because of that it seems i always want the easy way out

i always want the immediate pleasure the things i can see, touch and feel

if I have to wait and work and be patient then it seems that i won’t be happy

but again that’s my subconscious assuming again

because when i consciously see what my subconscious is doing 

I can be happy

i see with eyes and ears that aren’t seeing from a mortal view

i see and feel and touch things that mean more than the immediate pleasures

doing this consciously allows for my happiness to happen every day – 

no matter what my subconscious assumes, 

and no matter what hasn’t come true

life is best lived consciously and fully aware of who you are, where you are going,

and what you are doing to get there

i imagine

i imagine that its better then here

that it’s peaceful and bright

that hurts are soothed

not done away with but better

that hope abounds and joy is found

i imagine that they are there together

that tears flow from sadness, from sorrow

but through the tears smiles come and light

light shines where once light seemed it would never shine again

i imagine that here resides more pain then there

but that one day here will become there 

and pain will be a distant memory

and as i imagine 

i’m glad

glad for my here and glad for their there

and glad that i know one day my here will be there with them 

together

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