"I have dreamt in my life.......

"Judging is preventing us from understanding a new truth.

Free yourself from the rules of old judgments and create space

for new understanding"

i feel like i'm surrounded.

when we judge other people 

that's all we can see.

why do i have to worry about offending

another person when i did the best i could.

when what i did or do is because of my own 

choices, my own goals or my own insecurities.

what i chose to do had nothing to do with them,

sometimes it has something to do with them but not 

like they think, all i want to do is do the best that 

i 

can

but how can i when i have to worry about someone

thinking worse of me for choosing my own path 

my own way and overcoming weakness.

i've learned that 

i 

can't

i can't achieve my own path my own strengths 

if i worry what other people think 

so 

i 

don't

most of the time

and when i forget to forget about others judgements

i have a slight melt down, i wake up in a cold sweat worried

but then i remember

i 

did the best that i could and i still do the best that i can.

so who cares if other people don't like my style or what i eat

or how i write or that i don't cook or that i like to laugh at nothing

or sometimes okay all the time i say what i'm thinking and it sounds 

crazy..maybe a lot of the time

who cares that i like to close my eyes and dream, that i sing and pray 

all the time every where

i 

care

that i like who i am i like that i'm weird and quirky and random

and grounded, insane but sane, indecisive but when it matters

more decisive then anyone i know

i 

like 

me 

and that's all that matters, i'm not worried  about anyone else's life

i leave that to them, because when i look at others

like they are doing the best they can 

then i understand

i learn so much more about them, and people are willing to trust me

because i trust them, i'm realistic;

everyone is weak everyone is strong

and everyone has a different role to play and i like learning about them

and how they've played out so far

and i like to see how maybe they'll play out in the future.

so here's to eyes wide open, to understanding not judging