"I have dreamt in my life.......

today i found myself confronted

not by anything mortal or that

the eye could see,

but with something more infinitely important

pride

i found it in the oddest of places, sitting in a pew

in a black dress listening to my thoughts

to say i was shaken was an understatement.

i’ve been in this situation before but this time

i saw my thoughts for what they were,

pride

it was almost unbearable this reckoning this 

realization that i could be so weak and petty as 

to have the feelings and thoughts i had,

my breath was knocked from me i silently rocked 

back and forth tears forming, when all i wanted to do was

scream out my shame, tear out my hair, anything

anything but this awful knowledge of my own petty

pride

i prayed in my solitary agony surrounded by people

that God would take this from me.

take it and never let me feel my own foolishness and

pride

again.

confronted i was in despair, then an agony so strong that 

i shook from every fiber of my being, body and soul.

but as i prayed a light came and i knew

i knew that even though i had this pride i was still worthy

even though i saw my weaknesses and realized i’d never be

as great as I thought i’d be i saw that one day i could be better.

i saw that in my realization came understanding 

that one day God would hear this plea too and all my 

pride 

would be gone.

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