"I have dreamt in my life.......

what do you say when you have everything to say.  

where do you start when there seems to be no end?  

i feel at a crossroads again.  

it’s funny how you can hope and wish and pray day in and day out

almost every second for something to happen, and when it does 
you cry, laugh or lay as still as possible to soak it all in.  

but then  you forget, you forget that you SO desperately wanted this.  

you may have been grateful at one point but soon the day in and day out sets in 

again and it all becomes so common place again, you start to hope, wish and pray 

for another thing to happen, starting the cycle all over again.  what i’ve been asking lately is; 

when will it end?  when will i finally decide to be happy? 

to be content with who i am and have patience?  when will i find what it is life holds?

you know what i’ve decided, not till the end - but there never really will be an end,

 so i don’t think i will ever find that one thing life holds.  because this life is a 

culmination of discoveries it’s a culmination of moments, feelings, people, and 

experiences.  when i learn something or gain something then it starts over because 

i’m weak and because i have more and more to learn, to do, to experience.  

so i’m happy with what i’ve found in my road so far.  i’ve found God which in 

turn colors all my moments, feelings, experiences, and how i view people. 

i’ve found misery, joy, forgiveness, truth, sorrow, falsehoods, weakness, 

strength, happiness, peace, chaos, i’ve been found, i’ve been lost, i’ve 

stretched myself to the point i thought i would break.  but when it came 

time to break i found still more room to stretch.  

what have you found?

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